It starts out fine,
Just tryin to help yourself repair
All because it makes you not care.
You start doing it more,
Everybody keeps asking why
And what you say is
“I just like the high
“I love the feeling,
The release of all my fears,
The calm in my mind
When everything disappears.
When time stands still,
And I stop caring about it all.
When my heartbeat slows,
And everything seems so small.
The chills that spin me around
As it runs through my veins.
And the shivers down my back
As it hits me like a hurricane.
I know you don’t understand,
And I know you think it’s strange,
I know it’s hard to watch,
But realize I’m not ready to change.”
As the years go by,
The addiction grows.
You’ve lost who you were,
All because this is what you chose.
You’re getting sad now
So you go pick up some new stuff,
Cuz the old stuff isn’t working,
And when you finally take that puff
Your life starts to play like a movie,
Your palms start sweating,
And your body starts shaking.
All you can do is start regretting.
Regretting all the choices you made,
All the people you hurt,
All the times you never listened,
Because you weren’t concerned.
Remembering all the their faces
As they begged you to quit,
As they heard you say you couldn’t,
And as you watched their hearts split.
Now you’re lying there cold and alone,
A lesson learned too late.
Hoping people remember the good in you,
And praying nobody seals the same fate.
Bio: My name is Summer Miller and this poem is meant to open the eyes of those struggling with addiction. This hits very close to home for me and I hope you all can take something from it.